A moment of quiet
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20th Aug, 2009 | 12:49 pm
Some kind of nasty got a hold of a bunch of us on our weekend down the south coast. I don't know who brought it with them but it sure has done a number on me. What I thought, at first was just a hangover turned out to be some kind of pig of a flu. I seem to be coming out of it now. Being sick is no fun, but I've actually really enjoyed the last two days of sick leave, just staying at home with bastardang and Ruby. Nowhere to go, nothing to do. Spending time in the house with my ladies. It has made me even more aware of what I am missing out on while I'm at work and how much I wish I could just spend my time with the people I love the most.
We're TV-less right now, which bastardang is not enjoying, but I'm finding quite liberating. Last night we just all hung out together and played a board game and talked and watched some things on my lap top. It was all quite nice and I appreciated the monotonous chatter of the TV disappearing from our evening. I'm not a big fan of TV. I like a lot of the shows and movies that I can watch on it, but the advertising, the background noise it creates and the general ubiquitousness of it gets to me. I feel guilty because I know how much bastardang enjoys her TV, and I feel like I'm taking pleasure in her misery. But when it's absence makes her feel like the time is grinding, I feel like the time is no longer slipping by. That I don't come home from work just to fall into a TV coma and wake up the next day to go to work all over again.
This is especially important to me right now as Ruby is growing at an alarming rate. Not so much physically, but mentally. She's putting words into sentences and using them imaginatively. A great example of this was last night when Ruby put on a pair of polar bear ears then walked past us saying "I a bear, rawr!". The sheer volume of cute radiating from this kind of thing makes me want to choke. Add the strange pride in seeing her learning things like language, animal noises and pretending ... I could barely take it. She was also able to name almost every letter of the alphabet
I'm really looking forward to spotshouse's visit next month. I'm taking over a week off work and I'll be able to spend all that time just with my family, having fun, going places and just being together.